When Life Feels Heavy
Life feels heavy, at the moment.
I’ve been feeling burdened and “weighed down” by the what-ifs and questions lately.
There is a lot of joy and beautiful things, and there are also a lot of questions and wondering why.
I’ve been reading through the book of Romans this year, and it has been so good for my soul. And, at church we are going through the book of Job, which has also been good for my soul — but challenging and uncomfortable, as well.
It feels odd and hypocritical to write about superfluous, lifestyle-esque things right now. It doesn’t match my mindset. I am overjoyed and so content in this season of life, yet I’m struggling a little bit, wrestling with this chapter of life where I have more questions than answers.
And I realize, both things can be true. I can be so in love with this season of life — with raising a toddler and living this little life that I’ve prayed and dreamed about for so long. And I can also have questions and anxiety and feel a sort of “heaviness” about the future. I feel pulled in multiple directions and feel several emotions simultaneously.
My 2025 Word of the Year feels more true now than it did even on January 1.
God is faithful. He was, He is, and continues to be.
Faithful amid questions, faithful when everything is going right and when it’s not. Faithful when He is “silent” and when He provides answers.
Sunday’s sermon, although focused on Job, included Philippians 4:6-7. I’ve read these verses for years, memorized them, had them written down on post-it notes and tucked away in books. They are two of my favorite verses that have become my “life verses” in a way — helping me focus on God’s faithfulness, even when life feels heavy.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Peace.
When life feels heavy, when questions outweigh the answers, and it feels like a lot to process at once, I am thankful for God’s faithfulness. I’m thankful that God promises peace that transcends all things.